I Have Gazed So Much
2026
So much I gazed on beauty, that my vision is replete with it — Cavafy wrote those words in secret, about faces and bodies met furtively in the nights of his youth. These photographs were made for the same kind of looking: images of beautiful men circulated quietly among gay men for whom desire had no other sanctioned form. You could look. You could want. The looking was the entirety of what was possible.
The embroidered water fills the space around each figure while his body remains untouched — the photograph exactly as it always was, a surface that absorbed every gaze and returned nothing. These images were invitations — come, look, desire, imagine. But the destination could never be reached. For men who had to remain hidden, the longing had nowhere to arrive.
The model in this series, David Zuborg, was photographed by Bob Mizer for the Athletic Model Guild.
So much I gazed on beauty, that my vision is replete with it — Cavafy wrote those words in secret, about faces and bodies met furtively in the nights of his youth. These photographs were made for the same kind of looking: images of beautiful men circulated quietly among gay men for whom desire had no other sanctioned form. You could look. You could want. The looking was the entirety of what was possible.
The embroidered water fills the space around each figure while his body remains untouched — the photograph exactly as it always was, a surface that absorbed every gaze and returned nothing. These images were invitations — come, look, desire, imagine. But the destination could never be reached. For men who had to remain hidden, the longing had nowhere to arrive.
The model in this series, David Zuborg, was photographed by Bob Mizer for the Athletic Model Guild.
$795 CAD
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I Have Gazed So Long is 6 x 8 inches (15.24 × 20.32 cm). The vintage photograph is transferred to a tight weave cotton and embroidered with cotton thread. The image is mounted on art board and floated on a mat board and behind glass.
The black wood frame is 11" x 14" (approximately 30 cm x 36 cm). The piece is ready to hang with D-rings and wire on the back. A hook and nail is included.
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Shipping is included in the price of each piece. Works are carefully packaged and shipped via courier with tracking. All pieces ship from Vancouver, Canada. Delivery times vary by destination.
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International buyers may be subject to import duties, taxes, or customs fees. These are determined by your country's regulations and collected by the carrier on delivery. The Queer Thread does not collect or remit these charges.
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Each piece is framed and ready to hang. The length of the hanging wire can easily be adjusted. A hook and nail is included.
The glass and frame can be cleaned with a cloth dampened with clean, soapy water or glass cleaner solution.
Display your artwork away from direct sunlight and heat sources.
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A Certificate of Authenticity is provided with each piece.
The vintage images are sourced from online archives, collectors, and dealers. I credit photographers, studios, and models whenever the record allows.
Queer art has a long history of appropriation, largely because overt self-expression was not possible for gay people. Appropriation allowed artists to code messages in their work and, in many cases, pay tribute to those who came before them — artists who were unable to fully express themselves openly.
My work continues this tradition. It is grounded in the work of pioneer photographers and models; to these images I add new expressions of meaning that comment on the history of queer culture and people.
The source photographs are black and white. I apply a digital colourization before the image is transferred to cotton — not to modernize it, but because the contrast of black and white against coloured embroidery thread is too stark. The colourization is deliberately unrefined; I want the image to retain its age. Beyond this, I make no alterations to the photograph.
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All sales are final. In the unlikely event your piece arrives damaged, please photograph the packaging and artwork immediately upon receipt and contact me within 48 hours. I will work with you to find a resolution.
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